May 20, 2009

I am going to do something a little different today. I am going to write a blog, then erase it. The explanation for what sounds a little crazy is I have something I need to get off my chest that is bothering me, but have no desire to put negativity others on the internet for others to see, and possibly be hurt by later.


Okay. Hopefully that will get some of my anxiety off my mind and heart along with my prayers. I really want everything to be as some people believe it is, I just have a lack of faith in the situation.

May 15, 2009

To blog, or not to blog

Today I feel the need to blog, but really have nothing I feel the need to put out there. So what I will do is tell the world about my week.

Monday: Clint had to work late. I looked like rain it was going to rain, so I kept the kids inside (insert image of me pulling my hair out) and then it never did rain. Didn't really feel like cooking (already hairless by that point), so we had chili dogs for dinner.

Tuesday: Got home, rode bikes down the street. Went to the book fair at Angelique's school. Ryan called while we were there and asked if we wanted to get fitted for our dresses for Lana's wedding. So, we headed to David's Bridal, got the girls dresses out of the way and sent them to Sonic with Clint. Ryan and I tried on all 3 of the options Lana had given us and decided none were flattering and pursued the option of dresses in a different material. Found the ones we liked and then got permission from Lana to pick off her list. It took a little convincing. Headed home for a late dinner of 3 bean soup and broccoli cheese and rice.

Wednesday: Family dinner at Clint's dad's. The homemade Gumbo was really good. Clint stayed late to spend time with his dad and I headed home with the kids.

Thursday: Whew a night at home...Not so fast dinner at Clint's moms. Good dinner. Vacation discussion (when are we leaving, are we stopping on the way, vehicle arrangements), Livingston property care discussion (who is going up there this weekend to mow?), Etc.

Friday: Hopefully tonight we are actually staying home and I will start working on cleaning my house.

This Weekend: My house will be cleaned!!! We need to finish shopping for the river trip (whoo-hoo Guadalupe) next weekend. I am serving on Sunday and we have group Sunday night. I miss group.

May 4, 2009


I went running this morning.
I never imagined that I, a former track and field competitor, would find my self so out of shape and yes...overweight. So, after trying to put on a pair of shorts, then another, then another that didn't fit this weekend I decided it was time to do something about it. I know that running is an excellent way to burn calories and fat and build endurance. It is also a great motivator to stick to a healthy diet. I don't want to walk to the fridge and eat something terrible after working my bootie off early this morning. It is also an excellent way to energize your day if you do it first thing in the morning.
Who would have thought it would be so difficult though? My calves were burning before I even got off my street. I didn't make it past 15 minutes before I had to walk the rest of the way back to my house. Luckily, I was almost there when I finally gave in. Now I am sitting in my office chair 5 hours later and can feel one of the more dreaded cramps headed my way (butt-lock). It is very unpleasent and it could be difficult to explain if I get on the floor to stretch it out and my boss walks by.
Even with all the negatives stacked against me right now, I am keeping in mind that this is just the first day and not to give up, because each day I will be able to go further, faster and eventually will see results. If I just give up, I might as well go shopping for a wardrobe of larger clothes (not happening). The only thing I can think of that might make the going easier is if I had a running partner. Any takers?